MIYOBA
The
moment I got in my car I sped off. I was mad, I felt betrayed somehow. How could
Rio keep her, in his house then pretend he doesn't know anything when I talk
about it?
My
hands were shaky & sweating. The moment I parked in the garage I got off
the car & got inside the house. My hands were just shaking. The bottle of
whisky caught my eye, I walked up to it & opened it.
"I'm
not a drunkard... I'm not crazy" I kept chanting this in my head until I
smashed the bottle against the wall.
"I'm
not a drunkard... I'm not a failure"
I
walked to my bedroom then took my pills from the dressing table. I didn't understand
why I had to take these pills because I'm not crazy, I'm anything but not
crazy. I threw them on the floor that they scattered all around. Before I know
it I was crying...I'm not crazy.
"You
are not crazy, you are special..."
I
remembered his words. He believed I was not crazy. Natsu was my first real
boyfriend. It all started off when I went to boarding school. Things were a bit
hard for Rio & I. Natsu was the head boy, was a year older than me. It all
started as a simple hi, which turned into a lot of heys. Rio never liked him
because it was clear enough that Natsu was a player. I told myself I will never
fall for the arrogant womanizer but the opposite happened. I fell hard for him,
I was still young & probably didn't know what love was but I knew I loved
him. Our relationship was bumpy as hell but I always managed to store the good
moments & cherish them. When I was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder, he was
there for me. Only he knows that I have bipolar disorder, we had to pay some
guy & his girlfriend to pose as my parents because I didn't want my parents
viewing me as crazy. There are many times I felt like I was crazy but he always
managed to make it all feel better. Then he left, he left me. He had to go to
China for school. I felt betrayed because we had planned our future that we
would go at the same school but he chose to leave me.
After
a while I found myself picking up the pills, one by one & putting them back
in the container. I drank my regular dose then crawled into bed & closed my
eyes. It didn't take me much long to fall in darkness.
I
could hear my name being called out but it was faint. The voice continued to
grow louder by the second. I opened my eyes lazily & they came across moms’.
She had the concerned look on.
Her:
Miyo are you ok?
I
just looked at her.
Her:
baby…your house… Was there a break in. The gate wasn't closed & the doors
were unlocked. What's going on? There are broken glasses all over the floor...
Are you ok?
She
said helping me sit up straight.
Her:
are you ok?
Me:
I'm fine.
I
looked at the time, I was going to be late for work. I got off the bed.
Mom:
where are you going?
Me:
to work Mother!
Mom:
Miyo... I'm here with your Aunts.
Me:
Aunts? why?
Mom:
you need to be with your husband's family... You are a married woman.
Me:
I'm going to bath!
I
walked inside my bathroom closing & locking the door behind me. I took a
quick shower. After I was done I walked out of the bathroom & mom was still
sitting on my bed. She was holding my pills now. My heart momentarily stopped
beating.
Me:
wh-what are you doing with those?
Her:
what are these?
Me:
they are for Rio’s friend, she was here yesterday & had a breakdown.
Her:
she has bipolar? I know these pills.. Remember your cousin? Shikaku? She has
bipolar & these are the pills she takes.
Me:
yes, Rio's friend has bipolar... We had to take her to the hospital yesterday
so I came back late & was tired.
Her:
ok.. As I was saying Miyo, you need to be with your husband's family.
I
took a deep breath of relief as I walked to my closet that was close.
Me:
& I need to be in a meeting at exactly 8.
Mom:
Miyoba!
Me:
mother who is going to run the company while I play wife?
Mom:
you will. You just have to move there. Its tradition.
Me:
so I stay with his family. What about him?
Mom:
you will stay with his family until he marries you. White wedding.
Me:
white wedding? There's no white wedding happening!
I
said wearing my clothes.
Mom:
ok fine but you have to go there.
Me:
or what?
Mom:
you are married woman Miyoba! Stop acting like a kid! If you don't want to go
to his family's house then you are going to his house today!
I
kept quite putting on makeup, after I was done I took my handbag & a few
files.
Me:
I'm going to work!
Mom:
you will find us here when you come back.
Me:
do as you please. Can I get those. I need to drop them at the hospital.
I
said pointing at the pills. She gave them to me.
Me:
bye
I
said walking out of my room. Getting in the sitting room, various women were
sitting down. I only recognized one or two, the rest I didn't know them.
Me:
morning.
They
all responded. I walked out immediately after they responded, straight to my
car then drove to work.
